Ye Olde Library Carde

September 30, 2009

I lost my wallet on an airplane two weeks ago. This meant I had to cancel my credit cards and apply for a new driver’s license. It has been a minor hassle, but I am grateful that no money was charged to my accounts. All in all, it could have been a lot worse.

There was one item in that wallet, though, that was truly priceless. I have been using the same library card since I was eight years old, and that card was lost along with my wallet. It was just a beige piece of plastic with a barcode and my signature carefully written in newly-learned cursive, but it was my first library card. It is a little piece of history that I will miss.

I love libraries. I particularly love the public library that is a five-minute walk from my home. It is the same library where I attended preschool story-time as a four-year-old. It is the library where I received my first library card. Next time I go in, I will have to request a new library card, and that makes me a little sad.  76167_books

I mentioned my mini-tragedy to both of my sisters on separate occasions. I thought the significance might be lost on them. After all, it’s just a card. But they understood completely.

“That is so sad,” Lindsey said when I told her. Stephanie’s response was similar. It is wonderful to have understanding siblings who care enough to mourn the loss of an 18-year-old library card with me. I am so thankful for them.

I am also thankful for the library. I guess it’s time to start making new library memories with a new card.


The Dim Reflection

September 22, 2009

Lately I’ve been spending too much time pondering the mysteries of Life, the Universe, and Everything. I don’t think it’s healthy. Instead of finding answers, I find myself feeling sadder and more confused.

The other night, Jeremy reminded me of a verse from 1 Corinthians 13: “Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.”

If the Apostle Paul, who wrote a huge chunk of the New Testament, felt that he only saw a dim reflection of all God is, I guess it’s okay if I feel that way too. I don’t understand God, but how could I?

So I’m trying to embrace the adventure that happens here in the messy middle. I’m trying to trust, trying to follow a God I don’t understand. And I’m trying to find joy in the process.


September Sighting

September 9, 2009

Fort Casey

Jeremy and I took the Whidbey Island ferry out to Fort Casey on Saturday. In the late afternoon, after we had explored the woods and the fort’s echoey passageways, we found a lookout spot with a sweeping view of the ocean. The edge of the island curved out to the north, where the banks steepened into pale bluffs. The sun was directly ahead of us in the western sky, and we had to shield our eyes from its glare and the brilliant reflection it cast on the water. We sat and watched the waves scrape the pebbles on the shore twenty feet below us.

“It would be amazing to see a whale,” I thought. I started praying silently that we would see one … something I don’t think I’ve ever prayed for before.

A cruise ship sailed by. We saw water birds diving amidst a forest of kelp, but no whales.

Half an hour passed, and we decided to return to the field behind the fort, where we could throw the Frisbee around a bit before heading home. The trail we chose to take us back led us through the woods briefly, then opened on a clearing where we could see the ocean again.

I paused to look one more time. Right in the center of my panoramic view, there was a splash as a whale crashed back into the water, spraying water from its blowhole.

“Honey, did you see that?” I shouted, even though Jeremy was right next to me.

He had not seen it. The whale surfaced a couple more times before he found it. When he did, he was just as excited as I was.

“Get the camera out!” Jeremy said. It turned out neither of us had the camera. It had slipped from my coat pocket while we were sitting, watching the waves. Looking down, I could see where we had been sitting and could just make out the camera case lying on the ground. We ran down the path, keeping our eyes on the ocean.

Back in our original lookout spot, we spent the next twenty minutes watching for whales. Every few minutes, a whale would surface in a different place. The camera turned out to be useless … the whales were too far away and too unpredictable to capture.

When at last we headed back, the sun had sunk closer to the horizon, turning the sky a deeper shade of blue, the grass and trees a richer shade of gold. With Jeremy, I walked across the field toward the fort, savoring the ripeness of September, knowing I had received a rare and beautiful gift and been blessed to share it with someone I loved.

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Recommended Reading: The Relentless Tenderness of Jesus

September 1, 2009

What are you reading this summer? relentlesstendernessofjesus 

Over the past few months, I’ve read a couple dozen short stories and a handful of fantasy novels. I don’t normally read a lot of nonfiction, but lately I’ve been delving into books about the writing business, searching for career advice from the experts. I am learning a lot. But I’m learning even more as I re-read a book I first discovered this spring: The Relentless Tenderness of Jesus, by Brennan Manning. It might just be my book of the year. 

If you ever have difficulty believing that Jesus not only loves you, but likes you, or if you’re not totally sure you can trust Christ with your life, I’d recommend this book. Brennan Manning’s message is simple: Jesus is the beginning, the end, the everything of our faith, and Jesus really loves you and me. I’ve been a Christian all my life, so I’m supposed to know this, but it is amazing how often I forget. If you ever find yourself forgetting the love, the grace, or the supremacy of Christ, I would recommend this book. And if you’ve never known Jesus’ love, I’d recommend it to you as well.

After reading the book this spring, I wrote this poem. I believe it is true of me, and it is true of you too. God loves you deeply, and you are what his love and grace say you are.

If you’re looking for some end-of-summer reading, check out The Relentless Tenderness of Jesus. And if your plate is too full for any extra reading now, that’s okay  – just know that Jesus loves you, and he likes you too.


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