Hope this song makes you as happy as it makes me …

September 17, 2010

This weekend, Jeremy and I went to a show at the Q Cafe in Ballard. We’d been meaning to see Washington Mile for a while now, but this was the first time we actually got out and did it. I’m so very glad we did.

You know how good music can lift you up and seemingly take you into a different place? This show did that for me.

One song in particular has been in my head for the last few days. Enjoy it!

Purdy Waters by washington mile.

And go see Washington Mile at the High Dive on September 29th. They’re amazing.


Saying No to Perfectionism

September 15, 2010

In yesterday’s post, I wrote that I don’t have time for perfectionism. That thought has been running through my mind throughout the day today. I think it’s something I need to remember more often.

My favorite quote on perfectionism comes from Anne Lamott’s book on writing, Bird by Bird. I love this quote, because I think it’s right on.

I think perfectionism is based on the obsessive belief that if you run carefully enough, hitting each stepping-stone just right, you won’t have to die. The truth is that you will die anyway and that a lot of people who aren’t even looking at their feet are going to do a whole lot better than you, and have a lot more fun while they’re doing it.

Lamott also points out that if you are obsessed with being perfect, you’ll never allow yourself to create the perfectly awful rough draft that is the necessary first step in the process of making something beautiful.

… Just wanted to share that in case there are any other perfectionists out there who need to give themselves a break and allow themselves to enjoy the messy imperfection of the creative process. Please, be creative, get messy, and have fun!

Make a mess!


You Come Too

May 26, 2010

Creativity and hospitality go together. The best art is invitational.

A few years ago I lived with a friend who liked to go dancing – swing, salsa, and tango. She often invited me to go with her. I wasn’t very good. Fortunately for me, when it comes to dancing, guys lead; girls follow. Maybe this sounds like outmoded gender politics, but as a beginning dancer, I was happy to let someone else take the reins.  I quickly learned that there were three kinds of leaders on the dance floor. There were guys who were as clueless as I was. I didn’t feel embarrassed by my lack of skill when I danced with them, but lurching around the floor with them wasn’t all that fun either. Then there were the guys who were better dancers than I was and determined to show off. I remember swing dancing with one guy who flung me around like a yoyo, while he executed perfect moves. I was furious with him: he clearly cared nothing for my comfort or skill level; he just wanted to look good. But there was a third kind leader. These guys were at least as skilled as the show-offs, but they didn’t flaunt it. They taught gently, helping me forget my nervousness and find the rhythm. When they led, I danced better than I actually knew how to dance. These leaders were invitational; they gave me the chance to be beautiful.

The best writers, like the best dance leaders, are invitational. Through their stories, they create a space I can enter and explore. For me the highest art experience is the feeling of being taken into another place. Art invites me in.

If I use my creativity for anything, I want to invite others into beauty. Sometimes I get tripped up by my desire to be admired. But creativity isn’t about getting people to look at me. It’s about inviting people into beauty, saying “You come too.”

The Pasture

By Robert Frost


I’m going out to clean the pasture spring;

I’ll only stop to rake the leaves away

(And wait to watch the water clear, I may):

I shan’t be gone long. –You come too.


I’m going out to fetch the little calf

That’s standing by the mother. It’s so young

It totters when she licks it with her tongue.

I shan’t be gone long. –You come too.

Inspiration, Perspiration, and a Timer

May 12, 2010

How do you turn an idea into a completed story, painting, or song? You, of course, know what Edison said about inspiration and perspiration. You know that a great idea is only one percent of creativity; the other 99 percent will cost you a lot of time and hard work. And work can sometimes feel so overwhelming that it’s easy to give up on work altogether and let your idea waste away uncompleted.

Here is how I am trying to actually do creative work. Here is the process I am trying to follow:

  1. Brainstorm and set goals.
  2. Make a To Do list.
  3. Look at your week in advance; block off time for writing.
  4. Keep your promise to yourself and write during the time allotted for writing.
  5. Use a timer to keep you on track.

About that last one:

I’ve just started using this method, after hearing several writers recommend it. I’ve heard of several writers who write in timed sessions. Nothing but writing is allowed until the timer goes off. There are a couple of ways to do this.

  1. Set the timer for the amount of time you anticipate a certain project will take. Then work on that project steadily until the timer goes off. Don’t let yourself do anything else.
  2. Set a timer for 25 minutes, then work, work, work! When the timer goes off, take a five minute break – coffee, bathroom, stretch, email – whatever you want to do. After your break, start the process again … and again.

The second method appeals to me more. It helps me to know there will be a break coming up, plus, I think it’s healthy to get away from your computer every half hour or so.

I’m giving this a try, and I’ll let you know how it works for me. How do you get yourself to work on your creative projects?


Creative Inspirations, Part 2: Grace

May 5, 2010

Yesterday I wrote that one my creative inspirations is change. Seeing change not only inspires me in art; it inspires me in life. I see people making positive changes in their lives and world, and I want to do the same. Recently, for example, I’ve made some changes to the way I shop and the way I clean my home. The results: I’m saving money and treating the environment a little bit better.

I love making positive changes like this. I love the way I feel when I get it right. But I’ve found that I can only get it right for so long before I fail. And sometimes I fail badly. I choose wrong, and I get stuck. What I long for is a huge change, one I can’t accomplish on my own. I want to be transformed; I want to be redeemed. And for that, I desperately need God’s grace.

You probably know what grace is, but it doesn’t hurt to refresh your knowledge, so I’ll tell you again: Grace is God’s love and favor, given freely, not because of anything that we’ve done. It is the means of our salvation.

And that really inspires me. It makes me want to tell redemption stories and express transformation through art.

I don’t understand God’s grace, but I write about it anyway, because I think it is one thing really worth writing about. When I catch a glimpse of it, when I see that God, in all his hugeness, holiness, and power, genuinely cares about and even likes me … it makes me want to laugh. Maybe it’s because grace takes me by surprise. Grace is overwhelming and delightful and also somehow very funny. So often I feel lost and confused and like I don’t know anything, but I get this faint glimpse of something better, and it makes me want to laugh. It makes me want to create.

Grace inspires me. What inspires you?

The Heart Nebula


Creative Inspirations, Part 1

May 4, 2010

What inspires you to create? Changes get me thinking about story possibilities. A life change often provides an inciting incident that sparks a story. A change of scenery, a change of season, a career change, physical changes, relational changes … all of these are possible story-starters.

Even more inspiring are the changes that take place within people.

Don’t let anyone tell you, “People don’t change.” It is absolutely not true – not in life, and definitely not in story. Stories are all about the choices, challenges, and circumstances that change us:

A fearful person gets a chance to be brave.

A self-serving man chooses to sacrifice for the sake of others.

A downtrodden, rejected girl discovers unconditional love.

A slave finds freedom.

Something changes, and that inspires me. What inspires you?


A Book About Story

March 18, 2010

I’m currently reading a book called Story: Substance, Structure, Style, and the Principles of Screenwriting, by Robert McKee. I’m not a screenwriter, but the book’s principles apply to all forms of fiction. It’s about using the basic building blocks of story to grab your audience’s attention and make them care. McKee encourages writers to master classical story design before attempting anything too obscure or artsy. And he insists that writers value truth over the idea of originality:

When you work with one eye on your script and the other on Hollywood, making eccentric choices to avoid the taint of commercialism, you produce the literary equivalent of a temper tantrum. Like a child living in the shadow of a powerful father, you break Hollywood’s “rules” because it makes you feel free. But angry contradiction of the patriarch is not creativity; it’s delinquency calling for attention. Difference for the sake of difference is as empty an achievement as slavishly following the commercial imperative. Write only what you believe.

I think this quote applies to all forms of art, not just writing. I’m trying to follow his advice. I want to create honest, compelling art and stories; I want to quit worrying about whether my work makes me look intelligent or super-creative. It’s not about me; it’s about beauty and truth.

If you’re interested in enrolling in the Tom Petty School of Fine Arts, I recommend this as a textbook.


The Tom Petty School of Fine Arts

March 17, 2010

Today I stumbled upon a blog whose author describes himself as a “recovering English major.” I relate to that. I have no regrets about studying English – I loved it, and I learned a lot. But sometimes higher education breeds snobbery. As an English major, I got the feeling I was supposed to make a distinction between literary fiction and genre fiction. But I’m learning to let that go. I’m letting myself enjoy a good mystery novel from time to time. I no longer try to hide my love of fantasy stories.

I got my English degree at a liberal arts university. Now, I am enrolling in the Tom Petty School of Fine Arts. I mean this figuratively, of course. As far as I know, there’s no college by this name. (But if there is, I’m interested.) The Tom Petty School of Fine Arts is my term for the school of thought that values music, art, and stories that are engaging and accessible. I am a big fan of Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers for this reason: they write catchy songs – three-chord rock songs that make me feel good, written with the understanding that great composition does not have to be mind-bendingly complex.

I am not a musician; I am a writer, so what I aim for is the literary equivalent of a Tom Petty song. For me, as a writer, the Tom Petty School of Fine Arts involves reading and studying stories that catch my attention and make me care about the characters. Stories that keep me asking, “What’s going to happen?” These are the kind of stories I want to write.

The best book I’ve read so far this year is The World According to Garp* by John Irving. It’s a story about a writer, T.S. Garp. At one point in the book, he submits a manuscript to his editor, John Wolf. John Wolf passes the manuscript on to his cleaning lady, Jillsy Sloper. Jillsy is John Wolf’s secret weapon. She dislikes most books, but if a manuscript manages to hold her interest, it is sure to be a bestseller. Jillsy reads Garp’s manuscript very quickly, all the way to the end. She doesn’t like the how the story turns out (It’s a rather morbid story), but she can’t put it down. After she finishes it, Jillsy and John Wolf have the following discussion:

“If you hated it, why’d you read it, Jillsy?” John Wolf asked her.

“Same reason I read anythin’ for,’” Jillsy said. “To find out what happens.”

John Wolf stared at her.

“Most books you know nothin’s gonna happen,” Jillsy said. “Lawd, you know that. Other books,” she said, “you know just what’s gonna happen, so you don’t have to read them, either. But this book,” Jillsy said, “this book’s so sick you know somethin’s gonna happen, but you can’t imagine what. You got to be sick yourself to imagine what happens in this book,” Jillsy said.

“So you read it to find out?” John Wolf said.

“There surely ain’t no other reason to read a book, is there?” Jillsy Sloper said.

I quote this not because I think a story has to be sick in order for people to care about it, but because I agree with Jillsy on this point: The only reason to read a book is to find out what happens. When I am really into a book, when I can barely put it down, I go about the house asking (out loud, oftentimes), “What’s going to happen?” That is why I love to read.

I am an English major, and I love beautiful diction; I love symbolism; I love all the literary devices an author can employ. But just like Jillsy, the main reason I read a book is to find out what happens. The reason I like art is that it strikes an emotional chord with me. The reason I love music is that it’s catchy or emotive or beautiful.

I want this to inform the way I write. I want to worry less about making high art and more about crafting well-composed stories that make people care what happens. This is the Tom Petty School of Fine Arts.

(My apologies for the look of this video. It is the song I want to share, not the graphics.)

* A quick note: I liked this book a lot, but I have to say that I don’t recommend it for everybody. As with any book that showcases human nature, it can get fairly gruesome at times. … Not for the faint of heart.


Life vs. Fairy Tale: A Short Rant on My Least Favorite Expression

February 5, 2010

“Real life is no fairy tale.”

What people inevitably mean by this statement is, “Life is tough. Things won’t always go your way. It’s not all rainbows and cupcakes.”

I wonder, have these people ever listened to a fairy tale?  The fairy tales I know don’t have much to do with rainbows or cupcakes. More often they deal with murderous stepmothers and deadly curses. The world of fairy tales is a world where your answer to a single riddle might mean life or death. It is a world where you will need all your wisdom, courage, and compassion to complete your task and to remain human. It is a world where the stakes are high: great good and great destruction are both possible. It is very much like the real world.

Frederick Buechner wrote, “Here is the world. Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Don’t be afraid.”

Life, like a fairy tale, is full of beautiful and terrible things. Keep your eyes open; keep your heart open. Don’t be afraid.

And please, please, don’t ever use the expression, “Real life is no fairy tale.”

"Snow White" Illustration by Trina Schart Hyman

Image from Snow White, retold by Paul Heins, illustrated by Trina Schart Hyman


Go With What You Got

January 20, 2010

I wish I could write songs. Also, I wish I were an actor and a dancer and a sculptor. And maybe a gourmet chef. But I am trying to be a writer. I squeeze in some drawing, painting, cooking, and baking. I’m trying to learn how to crochet and knit. But mainly, I work at being a writer.

Songs, though … Words combine with music, and my heart responds in ways it never would to words alone. Last Thursday I got to hear the final mixes of the 5 songs on Valhalla Hill’s forthcoming EP. It always amazes me when my own friends and family members create art that makes my heart soar. Listening to those songs, I thought, “I wish I could do this.” I found myself discouraged by the talents I lack, wishing I could trade for someone else’s talent, maybe.

But when we got to the fourth track on the EP – the title track, “Go With What You Got” – my envy turned to inspiration. “Can’t you see it’s not about the things you don’t have now?” Of course. My responsibility is to use what I have to do what I can. (Way to inspire, Joey!) I may never be able to write a song, but I can work at writing and drawing to the best of my ability. I can push through writer’s block and distraction to create something good. And if I fail … at least I will have tried.

After listening to all the songs a couple times, we headed home. A line from T.S. Eliot kept running through my head:

For us there is only the trying. The rest is not our business.

The line is from “East Coker,” one of Eliots Four Quartets. Here’s a bit more for you:

So here I am, in the middle way, having had twenty years—

Twenty years largely wasted, the years of l’entre deux guerres

Trying to use words, and every attempt

Is a wholly new start, and a different kind of failure

Because one has only learnt to get the better of words

For the thing one no longer has to say, or the way in which

One is no longer disposed to say it. And so each venture

Is a new beginning, a raid on the inarticulate

With shabby equipment always deteriorating

In the general mess of imprecision of feeling,

Undisciplined squads of emotion. And what there is to conquer

By strength and submission, has already been discovered

Once or twice, or several times, by men whom one cannot hope

To emulate—but there is no competition—

There is only the fight to recover what has been lost

And found and lost again and again: and now, under conditions

That seem unpropitious. But perhaps neither gain nor loss.

For us, there is only the trying. The rest is not our business.

I’m thankful for all my friends who try. For everyone who uses their art to “raid the inarticulate,” to express what seems inexpressible. It’s not easy, I know, and I am so grateful that you do it.

By the way, if you want to hear the songs I’m talking about, you should come to Valhalla Hill’s CD release show at the Q Café in Ballard (Seattle) on February 13th. You need to hear what Rory, Joey, Isaac, and Jeremy have been up to. It’s good stuff.


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